Sometimes in life its hard to see the people around you and not turn exactly into them. Ive always been the girl who has been cheated on by guy after guy and i told myself that i would never actually go out of my way and cheat on anyone because i don't feel its the right thing to do. 
       After about a month ago i met a kid who is absolutely amazing in the sense that he is a complete sweetheart. He allows me to feel like im important which is important to me because nobody has ever put me first in life and it feels nice to have change for once. When i met this kid Pete it was a little hard to get used to because as much as everyone wants happiness its not the easiest thing to let in. After starting to date him for about one month i started to allow my eyes to wonder thinking to myself that maybe I'm number one in his eyes but hes not number one in mine. I started to feel like the kids i once dated because it was becoming clear to me that i could very possibly cheat on him. I have not yet cheated on him but with every passing day i notice that im starting to have feelings for another guy.
       What factors come into play as to whom you want to choose? Does the fact that they have very different personalities but still allow me to love the way they both treat me. Is it okay that im not attracted to Pete but the other guy is gorgeous. When it comes to deciding who you want to spend your days with; what do you do? who do you choose?
       Recently i have picked up the book Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert and its such a powerful book about love. After reading the book all your insecurities become hidden because you get a sense of happiness and high self esteem just from reading about how she dealt with love and happiness. For me i think love  & happiness is an important topic in the world because when people are unhappy most likely it has to do with some kind of love; family friends or relationships.